Oh goodness.

WEll, Jesus, i want to have more of you. I want to be in the place where i am not thinking of just one person. But my thoughts and dreams, wishes, and hopes, all my conversations will be about you. Jesus, i need more conversation with you. I need to find you. Lord tonight was an exceptional night. I was so blessed that I was able to spend time with friends who care about me. Friends who are interested in the things that i am.  The friends i trust to not freak out when we start smoking hookah (ha ha ha) what a funny thing. I learned so much tonight.

Tonight the Lord showed me relationships. He showed me that every person at the table tonight i actually cared about getting to know them more, and not just that one special friend sitting in your lap holding your hand, but it was like 3 people. gosh. Never in my life have i had a table of friends who i loved all so much. Maybe one person at a time, possibly two but never more than that. God has been blessing me with friendships.  A friend told me that my past friendships cannot be poison me anymore, or all my future friendships will be poisoned. So, i prayed and the Lord has been blessing me since then. Not just blessing, but blessing in abundance, holy crap.

Thanks JEsus. Please help me to seek you more and that be my desire and not the things that seem to be consuming my mind. Take those away and let me be filled with you. thank you jesus.

              amen.