colon and her oscopy

Today started out with me knowing that at 2:00 this afternoon i would get to start drinking a gallon of water with 248 grams of laxatives. That is a lot of water if i say so myself. It has not been as terrible as i thought it would be, but i only threw up once, so far. In the morning about 7:30 i get to start drinking this other yummy substance. i sure cant wait. ughhghhghgh.

Anyway, i had some time with Jesus this morning and it was good. i needed some help from a friend to really make me understand my time with Jesus today. I had a time this morning asking questions and word vomitting on Jesus today. it was quite terrible. I know that the Lord has great plans for me, but i have so many questions. why can i not be content with what the Lord has given me for today? Jesus i need you. Please comfort me,