Seasons of Life.

Lord Jesus, today has been a weird day, i feel like it has been terrible, but i know that compared to other people it's nothing. Lord, you have spoken seasons of life over me. This season for me is here at SNU. Living on campus is great. You have given me a wonderful roommate. She is so nice, nothing to complain about. Lord, i feel like when i first got here to SNU i met all of these really great people. I met fun new friends and felt like i was really going to love it a lot here. It's not bad, I'm not saying it's terrible, but JEsus, i don't feel like i have met anyone who i really can get along with. Lord you have put me in this place. Today i was doing homework with a friend in the art building. It was nice having someone to talk to and listen to music with. Jesus i just want more than that though. GOd no one here wants to really talk about you. No one at this "christian" college is interested in going deeper. Maybe that isn't true. Its probably is not. I just have not met these people yet. God i ask that you would lead me to these people. Jesus, i want to grow closer with you. Today the enemy was whispering secrets to me. He was telling me that i am not going to find anyone to talk to about you. I am not going to find someone who i can talk with about you and about the things in my life that really matter. I was getting down and sad. Then i remembered the seasons of life you promised me a month or so ago. I remembered that you want good things for me. You are not hiding your life from me, you want me to follow you Lord. I felt a little better after that but was still a little frustrated. I need JEsus to take this away from me. This sadness that is overwhelming me. It musters up inside and tries to swallow me. MAke me sad, make me frail, make me weak, make me cry. I will not let down. i will keep fighting for you my JEsus, I need your arms to wrap around me and show me your life. Show me the fruit and goodness that you are bearing in my life. Jesus i feel like you have taken much of the goodness that was coming into this season. Lord why? What can i do to keep the fruit coming in. THe fruit needed to be pruned so i may bear more fruit. That is why alex. I needed a pruning. Lord help me now to just look for you. PLease help me to find you in the dark places. Jesus as I'm looking, let me find you, Hold my hand, guide me through, wrap your arms around me. Hold me in your hand like a child. Father as i was doubting tonight you showed me the life you promised me. FAther, Les. Tonight she needed me. She actually needed something from you that has been hiding inside of me. Lord, a girl who had been crying and needing you. Jesus the enemy has told her that she is too busy, Father i ask that you would provide for her, Help her to find peace tonight, Thank you for putting her on my floor and allowing me to pray with her and help her to find peace. It is from you and you alone that life is coming from, it is not from me. All i can do is think about how miserable i am right now, which im not. i jsut think i am kind of in this and that area. Lord, please take me as your own, give me peace and help me to love the campus at snu. Help me to look for those in need of you, GOd send me out, Let me be a leader and serve you the way you long to be served. I love you JEsus, THank you for tonight and all that you are. aMen.